Copperwoman's Story • April, 2005
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April 16, 2005 • 23 Down, 9 to Go
Amazingly enough I have been under the "ray" 23 times already. I have one more full week and the following weekonly 4 days. Garberville, here I come! I am feeling great. No burns, just a tan line surrounding the area. I have continued to carry joy into the radiation lab, handing off the magic wand to doctors and technicians to hold when they comment on it. One day when I walked in with the wand, Pat, the technician remarked that she imagined the tinkling sound like little fairy dust glitter bouncing around the room.
Other news on the health front...I had a colonoscopy last Monday, the 11th and was thrilled to find that I didn't have any polyps. In the past, I had 2 colonoscopies and both times polyps were found. I have also lost my 2 eldest brothers to colon cancer--making it even more of a relief to know that nothing was growing in there. It had been 5 years since my last one and after this journey with "C" I am glad to know I don't have to face a similar challenge in another part of my body.
I have kept up with my mantra, "rest when you have to and dance when you can." Thursday was Debbie Nargi Brown's African Dance Class and at the end they put me in the center and sang, "Pour Upon Us Great Love and Great Light," a very beautiful song that fed the Radiance that I have been feeling. And last night I traveled to Carmel Valley with some friends to go to a dance jam down there. It was in the home of Elisa Lodge, an overflowing creative, expressive woman. When I walked in I recognized her from Marigold Fine and Shana Ross's video, "On the Wild Side: Meetings with Remarkable Women." (A video that we were both part of). It was a fun night with a lot of connecting with new people, an abundance of masks to wear, some butterfly wings that transported me to another dimension and firespinners too.
The other thing that I have been focusing my time on while I am still here in Santa Cruz is singing. We had a great CircleSong this last Wednesday. It creates such a beautiful vibration and feeds the soul when that many voices sing together. I have also had the fortunate opportunity to sing with Kate Munger and the Threshold Choir. I have been learning a lot of new songs to bring back to Garberville and share with a "sister" choir, Chrysalis. Kate's mission is to teach women to sing at the bedsides of people who are sick or dying and also at ceremonies after death. This is work that I have been called to for a while and I am happy to have other people to do it with.
I have to mention one more thing in case it can help anyone who might find themselves in a similar situation. When I started chemo, I was told not to get my teeth cleaned as the mouth becomes overly sensitive etc. I was just due for a 6 month cleaning and missed it not getting this info in time. I just recently went in to have my teeth cleaned and was hit with the news that my mouth was full of new decay. It's not like I started with a great set of teeth--by this time in my life, I am sad to say that I have several crowns and fillings. Anyway, because one of the side-effects of chemo is a dry mouth, it sets up a condition in the mouth where lacking the alkalinity of the saliva, the acid environment breeds bacteria, and decay becomes much more likely to happen. So I found out that I have several new cavities that must be filled. If one is aware of it beforehand, first they could get their teeth cleaned and second their dentist can advise them on precautionary methods such as using baking soda to balance the acidity in the mouth.
OK, that's the news for now,
April 1, 2005 • I'm Radiant
There is a follow-up story to the Radiant Song. A few days after the song came through (see March log) when the time was just right, I sang the new song to the technicians in the radiation lab. They were even more receptive than I had imagined they could be. I danced around and sang the song and they immediately tried to sing along and wanted me to teach them the words. One thing led to another and before I knew it I was singing the chemo song, "Oh Bone Marrow." (335kb) They wanted to learn that one too. The next day when I came in, Pat came over to me with her pad and paper to write down the words. Instead, I handed her 2 cd's with both songs that I had recorded into my computer. She was stoked. The next day when they called me into the room they danced along singing the song. I left that day saying "radiation is fun," because we making it so with lightness.
I only mentioned the first verse in the other log but there are 2 more. The second is, "they're healing me, I'm radiant" and the third is, "kill off the bad cells, bounce off the good cells, I'm radiant." Click here to listen to "I'm Radiant" (941kb, will take a long time on dial-up connection) and "Oh Bone Marrow" (335kb).
I have now completed 14 days out of the 32 all together. My magic wand always comes with me. I am feeling good, taking naps when I need to, applying Sunshine's calendula oil and Aloe Vera from the back yard. No sign of ill effects to the skin. As usual, just trying to stay ahead of it all with positive vibes and love--and that works wonders.
Thanks for the love,